Doing Things That Matter

I realized that these posts are written really late – in fact it is in the middle of the night because I was planning on writing my posts whilst my boyfriend brushes my hair but he fell asleep before my hair got brushed. So now it’s still in this messy bun all tangled.

I quietly got out of bed to write these posts. He didn’t notice because he can sleep through anything.

So earlier I was in my boyfriend’s room and his sister was going downstairs and then all you hear is her screaming. Then I came over and I start screaming. She found a lizard on one of the steps.

My boyfriend found this lizard and he was going to drop it off at a pet store but the lizard escaped from the box and he wasn’t able to find it until his sister nearly steps on the poor thing. I named her Liz and I’m not even sure if the lizard is male or female.

Me: OMG! My boyfriend didn’t take this to the pet store!!

She told me that she probably stepped on it before she realized it was a lizard she mistaken it for a leaf.

So we had to think of something quick because we had to depart soon to meet up with her mama. We had to scoop it up somehow so we used a cloth to place him back into this box that my boyfriend threw him in. The box already had air holes. Their brother somewhat lacked concern for our safety. After his sister explained what was happening, he suggested to her that I just sit around watching this lizard. As if my time isn’t valuable.

Then I go to use the bathroom and my boyfriend’s brother’s lizard is in the way so I screamed! Their brother became annoyed because we were screaming. I was startled. He had to grab his lizard and told us; “Why do you guys have to be so extra?”

I messaged my boyfriend; “Thanks for going to the pet store!! -.-”

Later on throughout the day I came back into my boyfriend’s brother’s room and he told me to be careful because his lizard was running around. So as soon as I soon the lizard I started screaming and then his sister from afar started screaming too. He wasn’t impressed.

Then my boyfriend came home and I told him the story and he told me that he started laughing when he read my message. Which I didn’t find funny by the way. I tell him that he told EVERYONE in the house but me. He told his mama, his sister and his brother. He told me that he wanted to find it himself which didn’t happen.

So then later his brother told me to sit down because he wanted me to not to be afraid of lizards anymore. He placed his lizard on my lap. It was… different.

Then later on in the day, his brother wanted to play his game so he kicked us out of our room and he didn’t tell us that we would sleep here in his room since it was only supposed to be two hours top.

I just feel so unprepared. We didn’t colour before going to bed. I wanted to fall asleep differently. I wanted to smell the autumn crisp evening air. A lot of my things are still in the room because it was never supposed to be an overnight thing. It feels weird.

This feels strange for some reason. And now I can’t fall back to sleep but at least I brought my pencil crayons and colouring book. Laugh at me now but colouring has many benefits. Although I can’t use any lightening since I don’t want to startle my boyfriend despite that his lizard startled me. So now I have to settle using this computer screen as my light.

Today, I will not the unknown scare me. Instead I would use them as stepping stones to overcome my fears. I will not let the feelings of being unprepared bring me down.

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