Lasagna

My boyfriend’s family and I made lasagna. We used ricotta and marble cheese and bell peppers as well as the beef and noodles and sauce. It was very creamy with the ricotta cheese, I haven’t cooked lasagna with that kind of cheese before.

Grandma’s Meatloaf

Earlier this evening I got to spend time with my Grandparents. I haven’t gotten the chance to spend a lot of time with them since I have been spending a lot of time with my dad’s parents.

For dinner my grandma made us meatloaf. It was the best meatloaf of hers I have ever had. It was delicious. I really enjoyed myself.

Lighthouses

8379f401d6c0f2217faf01f5d5afc4f7

This is something I must remind myself. As much as I want to help out others I must accept and understand that everyone is their own person. There isn’t anything I can do about their solution. Sure, I can offer support to them from time to time but I must understand that they are entitled to make their own decisions without my advice.

If it is something that I no longer feel comfortable with, I understand that I can walk away from it at any moment.

I have to learn that the decisions of others will only hurt me if I allow them to. Sometimes what people do isn’t intentional and that I shouldn’t take what they do personally.

I have learnt the hard way that we cannot save people. The person has to be their own angel and rescue themselves. No matter how difficult it is to watch them.

Another thing I learnt the hard way is that we can’t be someone’s safety net, we have to let that person fall so they can learn that what they are doing is wrong and hurting you. Every time we are at the bottom waiting for them to fall we are only delaying their learning experience. That is something that is very difficult to do. I’m not saying this to be mean, I am expressing everything that I had learnt over the past two years.

Day 119

This week was another rollercoaster. I feel like whenever things are getting better, another thing happens in a different aspect of my life. I can’t have every aspect of my life right; something is wrong. It varies from my job, to my relationships, to my health and prosperity.

I’ve been going through a few struggles lately and I’ve been trying my best to think of solutions. I can’t.

Something that works well for me is stretching and exercising. That really helps clear my mind and relaxes me a bit from the chaos.

I’ve been reminding myself that I have to accept the things I cannot control. I have to understand that I can only change the things I can.

This week…

1. Exercise more

2. Change my mindset

3. Read