What is New With Me?

Firstly, hey everyone! I hate that it has been so long since my last post! But I hope that everyone is well. This year has been difficult. I’ve been feeling down most days. I’ve been feeling sad because of the losses I have encountered this year, so that’s been a bit challenging trying to find the positives in things as of now.

I’ve been working two jobs, which can be tiring, but it has also been rewarding, too. Since I am always working a lot, I end up not having as much time to myself as I would like to have. I do miss having more time to cook some of my delicious meals. So I try to make sure that I budget my time wisely to ensure I get things done and that I can make time for fun. I’ve also been able to try out new restaurants, and making time for people. I’ve also been getting my nails done, which has been a lot of fun! I do enjoy having an active social life.

And during the transition of starting my two jobs, my Grandma passed away. I was really upset about it, because my Grandma helped shaped me into the person that I am today. She has taught me so much, like how to be polite and the importance about using my manners. She passed down her love for cooking and baking to me. Although I feel like I have lost her even before she passed away, because she was sick for throughout a good portion of my life. So I was slowly watching her lose who she was piece by piece. But I am able to find comfort in the fact that she is now reunited with my Grandpa in Heaven.

I have recently reconnected with a friend last year, but it just been feeling like there has been a lot of space between us as of lately. So that can be lonely somedays, and can make me feel a bit sad. I think about my friend from time to time, always sending them good vibes. But this friend does bring me a lot of happiness, so I am glad that we got to reconnect. I think the last time I saw was about eight years ago, or so. We still talked during those times. I’m glad that we are apart of each other’s lives again!

Throughout the year I have been blessed to reconnect and talk to people I haven’t spoken to for a little while, which has been so much fun catching up with everyone. I am thankful for the people who have been by my side no matter what has happened between us.

I am hoping that this year can end on a positive note. This year and the year prior has been difficult for me. I still plan on achieving my goals that I have put in place for myself. I want to go back to school, but I am still figuring what I want to pursue, which for some reason has been challenging, because I can envision myself doing many different jobs.

But I also have some other goals that aren’t job focused per se, such as making more time for reading, and blogging, saving up money, and going through my belongings and the things I own. In hope that I can remove some of the excess stuff that I no longer need. I also want to work on saving up so I can travel! I miss being able to write my own stories. I have written some short stories on here before. I will probably edit them and make them better. But if you are interested in reading these stories. https://yellowdaisies3.wordpress.com/category/writing-wednesdays/

I actually want to start a book club, where hopefully a few people on here will be interested in joining me talk about the book of the month. I have never really been a part of a book club, but I have always wanted to partake in them. I have read a few books from the Oprah Winfrey’s Book Club, and Reese’s Book Club. But I unfortunately haven’t been able to interact with everyone else who has read the books.

I cannot wait to be able to make these goals and dreams happen for me! I hope that the end of this year can lead into a happy and adventurous 2023! I am so beyond happy for myself!

I will be talking more about my Book Club which I have worked out the details of the book I have selected and think of some discussion questions. I am so excited! This is my first time hosting a Book Club, so I do need a bit of research first. Stay tuned!

I would love to know how everyone has been over this year! I would love to catch up with all of you! Please comment and I’ll reach out to everyone. It can be anything from your biggest struggle, a triumph, something that you accomplished, or something you wish to accomplish, or anything you wish to talk about. I would love to reconnect with my followers!

With Love,
Three Yellow Daisies xo

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A Year in My Life

I wish I could say that this past year has been easy, but truthfully it has been the most extricating, difficult year that I had went through in a very long time. I have experience the loss of many things and people. My world fell apart like a supernova. It all began when my Grandpa passed away last March. His passing broke me, I remember spending days curled up in my bed, crying, and being sad for days on end. I have been replaying a lot of our memories in my head. I have a lot of pictures that I look at when I miss him.

He truly was an amazing person. Everyone loved him and he was everyone’s best friend. He is so missed, but he is forever in my heart. I think about him all of the time.

I had tried taking on a retail job. I have normally just done jobs in the food industry, so it was difficult in the beginning. After months, I have been managing just fine. I have worked a few retail jobs before, so I have been using the skills to my new job. I have actually met some really nice people there. It was a hard adjustment, but now I feel like I can get in the swing of things.

And then unfortunately I experienced another loss when my aunt passed away a few months ago. I miss her so much. I feel bad because I haven’t had many chances to see her recently since the whole covid situation. She passed away so unexpectedly. I always wished I was able to spend more time with her before she passed away. But unfortunately that is life. We all have one last day with everyone, we just never know when that might happen. That is why it is important to stay in touch with the people that matter the most. It should also reinforce us to be kind to each other, since we don’t know what our last words may be to someone.

And another loss that I faced last year, was when my boyfriend and I broke up. We still talk from time to time, we don’t hate each other. We are able to be civil about it.

So this explains why I haven’t been that active in the blog universe.

Although the one good thing about last year is that I was able to reconnect with one of my friends from many years ago. I am happy that the universe decided to bring someone that can bring joy in my life despite taking away people. That is the universe’s way of taking the good with the bad.

After all of the losses I had suffered last year, I truly hope that 2022 is the year for me. Things aren’t exactly perfect right now. But I pray for guidance, and for the strength to not allow myself to stay broken. I will try to rebuild myself so I can come back stronger than ever. My life has been so messy and complicated right now, but what matters is how I rebuild myself after these losses. I have big goals for myself. I am excited for all of the things I have planned to do this year. Of course, I would be documenting my goals and dreams on my blog. I do wish to blog more again.

I truly miss all of you. I hope everyone has been doing well. I appreciate any words of feedback, love and prayers. I will try to get back to everyone who comments. Thank you again for understanding.

Day 81

Hey everyone! I’m just trying to catch up with everything! I’ve missed everyone, and I hope that everyone is doing well.

Every day (or at least) I’m trying to get back into the habit of writing a lesson or something that I have learned and share my wisdom with everyone. I often feel like I have encountered a lot of wisdom from various people and experiences throughout my life.

This is from Monday March 22nd.

Something that I have learned, the hard way, may I add… Is that everything in life is only temporary. So if you are going through hard times today, don’t be so hard on yourself. It just means that things can only go up from here, and things won’t always be this way forever. And unfortunately, when things are going really well, enjoy it, because not everything can last forever. Alas this doesn’t just imply for the events in our lives, it also works for our loved ones. Lots of people will come and go throughout our lives. Whether they move away, or pass away, we must not take them for granted. Instead we should learn to cherish these moments shared with your family and friends.

Today, I will realize that everything in life is only temporary. So I shouldn’t get too angry or upset when I am going through hardships, because nothing lasts forever. And I must remember to pause and reflect on the good times, too, because alas, everything in life is temporary, and things can change on a dime. I should enjoy the good times, and learn from the bad times and the lessons they teach me.

Thankful Thursdays #38 – March 18th, 2021

This is one of my favourite posts to write about. I love expressing gratitude, and sharing with everyone what I am thankful for throughout my life.

I would love to hear what everyone is thankful for, as well.

1. I am thankful that I was able to say goodbye to my Papa, before he had passed away, and during his funeral. I know in most countries that people weren’t able to have a funeral because of Covid-19 protocols. My sister and I talked to my uncle who was visiting his Dad, and we talked to him via FaceTime. It wasn’t how I had wished to say goodbye to him, but I am thankful that I was able to say goodbye to him. I was able to thank my Grandpa for all of the memories, and love he gave to me.
2. As I looked back I realize how lucky I was to have all of these years with my Grandpa. I know a lot of people from my school, and others growing up with, they didn’t get to have as many years as I did with my Grandpa.
3. My family and I haven’t been able to see each other since Christmas of 2019, but we able to see each other from a distance during the funeral. That was bittersweet.
4. When I was with my niece the other day, she was listening to music, and one them had said, “I love you”, and I heard her say that to me for the first time. She even looked away from her iPad, and said that to my face. So precious!
5. I am thankful that I am able to find comfort of the loss with my books. I had a bit of a reading slump for a little while.

Day 77

This is from Thursday March 18th.

Within the week of my Papa’s passing, we had a funeral for him. It was a lovely and beautiful service. I miss him and love him so much. I just wished we had more memories towards the end. Only because the final year of his life was spent in lockdown, so we couldn’t visit him. I feel like if I was able to see him during his final year, I wouldn’t feel so sad.

Something that my Papa always lived by, was to devote your time into your passions. Find what you are passionate about and spend your time working on them. It really encourage me to devote my time to spend time brainstorming and writing down some book ideas. My lifelong dream is to be a published author. I would love to be my own boss, and just write books. I have been planning on getting all caught up with the things I am behind in, like reading my library books, my blog, and just rearranging things in my room.

It is important to spend a bit of time every day to work on your goals and passions. Even if it’s just five minutes, it will be five minutes more than what you would have spent on your dreams if you didn’t.

Today, I will discover what my passions, and what I would like to accomplish in the upcoming weeks, months, or even years, depending on what your goal is. Once I have decided on what I want to achieve in my life, I would devote a little bit of time every day to achieve all that I would like to achieve.

Just Checking In

Hi everyone!

For the sake of my Happiness Project, I ended up changing the date of my publication date on my previous blog posts. That way all of March Happiness Project’s resolutions and goals can be found in March, and not scattered through March, April and May. Thank you again for your patience and understanding.

I apologize for being so busy these past two months. I’m not sure if you have heard, but my Grandpa passed away two months ago. It has been the most challenging, and heartbreaking past few weeks. I feel like I’ve been going through a lot. He was the closest person I have ever lost. He was my best friend.

I have been trying to get all caught up with everything on here. But at the same time it feels like everyone wants my attention, and needs my help. I know I should put myself first, and my desires first. But at the same time, I always struggle to say no. But I do all of these things for my niece’s sake, and her benefit.

There are days where my sister and her boyfriend need me to watch my niece. And some days, I feel like drained by my other obligations, but I say yes, so I can see my niece, and spend time with her.

I am slowly starting to work towards things I want to do for myself, and things that would make me happy. I guess I just feel drained because there is so many things I want to do, and work towards, but I have falling a bit behind. I am now finding down time to get things done.

I made a list of some of the things that I need and want to get done. This has been so helpful, because I don’t have to get a mental note out of everything that I would like to get done. And now that I have a better visual of what needs to get done. I can see how to spend my time more wisely. This will help me stay motivated and on track of achieving everything I set out for myself.

I can’t wait to get all caught up again. I appreciate the love and support from everyone. Please continue to send me positive messages, and support. My goal is get caught up with things by June, if I can. I am determined to work through a lot on my To-Do List. I can’t wait to hear from all of you again. ❤

Day 73

This lesson is from Sunday March 14th.

I became inspired from Melody Beattie about her meditation book called The Language of Letting Go. She writes a piece of advice, and affirmation every day of the year. I wanted to make my own, as well. I write about life lessons I have learned throughout the day, or throughout my life. I feel like I have a lot of wisdom to pass on to others. Mind you everyone has different opinions about everything else, so take what you like, and leave the rest. Mind you, you don’t have to do anything you don’t want during this journey. I am trying to work towards being more mindful, and present this year.

One of my favourite hobbies is writing, whether it’s writing my blogs, or writing short stories. It is something that I have always spent time doing. I also like to journal my feelings, and my goals, too. But something that I haven’t done in awhile is write someone a letter. I used to write my boyfriend a letter every so often, even though we live together, but it is nice to write someone a letter. I also liked writing to my cousin as well. But that was something we stopped not too long ago. That is something I hope her and I can continue.

Writing someone a letter, and let them that you miss them, or why you love them will instantly brighten their day. And knowing that you helped someone feel good about themselves, will make you feel happier, too. Writing also helps you clear your head, and help you pause and reflect on what truly matters. If you like to, you can save your letters for a scrap book, or to keep and treasure for later. And there are many other benefits to writing a letter to someone.

You can even write someone an email, too. Although you might not experience the same benefits by actually writing a letter by hand. Only because when you write a letter by hand, you have to put more thought into your writing, whereas with email, it is a bit easier since you can backspace, and rearrange certain sentences.

Today, I will try my best to write someone a letter to someone who is dear to me. I will express my appreciation and love that I have towards them. It is important that I remind my loved ones how much they mean to me.

Catching Up

Hi everyone!

I feel bad, because I have been so busy with everything. Just over a month ago, my Grandpa passed away, and that was a lot to deal with. So I took a bit of time to myself, and to grieve over his loss. There isn’t a day that doesn’t go by, that I don’t think about him.

So I am slowly, but surely catching up with everything. I appreciate all of your love, and support during this time. Thank you so much!

I hope everyone is doing well.

Minimalist Game Day 13

The rules are simple, you get rid of things from your life, either by selling them, throwing them away, or donating them. On the first day, you remove one item, and then on the second day, you remove two items, you keep on playing until it’s the end of the month, or whenever you run out of things to remove from your life. It is okay if you can’t make it until the end of the month. Personally, I would rather see items get donated, or sold to someone else. If you must throw something away, I hope it’s because it isn’t fixable. Even if you have removed three items from your life, you should still be proud of that, because it is three more things you removed before the challenge. But if you are able to complete this challenge, you would have gotten rid of almost 500 items! That’s a lot of stuff.

If you are participating, I would love to know what you are parting with, feel free to let me know in the comments. This is such a fun way to welcome Spring cleaning.

This is from Saturday March 13th.

In the first photo, I am giving away…

• Eight tins of tea, two of them I gave to my sister, so she can fill them up for part of her daughter, and step son’s surprise for Easter.
• A dancing flower, it dances when it has sun shining on it. I think my niece will get a kick out of that.
• A pumpkin for my cousin, she loves Halloween. I don’t have any purpose for it anymore.
• A candle that got recycled
• This light up butterfly that I will ask my cousin if she wants to have this, too. I kind of grow out of it.
• A pair of socks that I don’t wear.

Is anyone decluttering their belongings right now for Spring cleaning? I would love to know about your journey, and if you need any help.

Day 72

As sad as we may be when a loved one passes away, we should remind ourselves that our loss is another person’s reunion. Meaning that we have lost someone incredible, but that person is now reunited with all of the amazing people that has passed on before them.

My Grandpa was the youngest out of his siblings, so he saw all of his family pass on before him. So now he can be reunited with all of his siblings, and his friends, too.

I always regret not calling him as often as I should have. But there wasn’t a lot of new things happening in my life, so I didn’t really know what to say most of the time. I really wished I had made the effort to talk to him more. But in the past, I visited him a lot.

Today, I will remember that even though I am sad, I should be thankful that my loved one is in a better place, with all of our loved ones who have passed on before us. I will honour the ones that have passed on by embracing their lives, and legacies. I will let them live on in my heart, and it would be like they never passed away.