Firstly, hey everyone! I hate that it has been so long since my last post! But I hope that everyone is well. This year has been difficult. I’ve been feeling down most days. I’ve been feeling sad because of the losses I have encountered this year, so that’s been a bit challenging trying to find the positives in things as of now.
I’ve been working two jobs, which can be tiring, but it has also been rewarding, too. Since I am always working a lot, I end up not having as much time to myself as I would like to have. I do miss having more time to cook some of my delicious meals. So I try to make sure that I budget my time wisely to ensure I get things done and that I can make time for fun. I’ve also been able to try out new restaurants, and making time for people. I’ve also been getting my nails done, which has been a lot of fun! I do enjoy having an active social life.
And during the transition of starting my two jobs, my Grandma passed away. I was really upset about it, because my Grandma helped shaped me into the person that I am today. She has taught me so much, like how to be polite and the importance about using my manners. She passed down her love for cooking and baking to me. Although I feel like I have lost her even before she passed away, because she was sick for throughout a good portion of my life. So I was slowly watching her lose who she was piece by piece. But I am able to find comfort in the fact that she is now reunited with my Grandpa in Heaven.
I have recently reconnected with a friend last year, but it just been feeling like there has been a lot of space between us as of lately. So that can be lonely somedays, and can make me feel a bit sad. I think about my friend from time to time, always sending them good vibes. But this friend does bring me a lot of happiness, so I am glad that we got to reconnect. I think the last time I saw was about eight years ago, or so. We still talked during those times. I’m glad that we are apart of each other’s lives again!
Throughout the year I have been blessed to reconnect and talk to people I haven’t spoken to for a little while, which has been so much fun catching up with everyone. I am thankful for the people who have been by my side no matter what has happened between us.
I am hoping that this year can end on a positive note. This year and the year prior has been difficult for me. I still plan on achieving my goals that I have put in place for myself. I want to go back to school, but I am still figuring what I want to pursue, which for some reason has been challenging, because I can envision myself doing many different jobs.
But I also have some other goals that aren’t job focused per se, such as making more time for reading, and blogging, saving up money, and going through my belongings and the things I own. In hope that I can remove some of the excess stuff that I no longer need. I also want to work on saving up so I can travel! I miss being able to write my own stories. I have written some short stories on here before. I will probably edit them and make them better. But if you are interested in reading these stories. https://yellowdaisies3.wordpress.com/category/writing-wednesdays/
I actually want to start a book club, where hopefully a few people on here will be interested in joining me talk about the book of the month. I have never really been a part of a book club, but I have always wanted to partake in them. I have read a few books from the Oprah Winfrey’s Book Club, and Reese’s Book Club. But I unfortunately haven’t been able to interact with everyone else who has read the books.
I cannot wait to be able to make these goals and dreams happen for me! I hope that the end of this year can lead into a happy and adventurous 2023! I am so beyond happy for myself!
I will be talking more about my Book Club which I have worked out the details of the book I have selected and think of some discussion questions. I am so excited! This is my first time hosting a Book Club, so I do need a bit of research first. Stay tuned!
I would love to know how everyone has been over this year! I would love to catch up with all of you! Please comment and I’ll reach out to everyone. It can be anything from your biggest struggle, a triumph, something that you accomplished, or something you wish to accomplish, or anything you wish to talk about. I would love to reconnect with my followers!
Something that is important to me, is to make sure I keep my promises to people, but also to myself as well. This life lesson was reinforced to me at my Grandpa’s epilogue. He has made an importance that we kept our promises. There are things that I have promised myself. I have goals and dreams that I would love to achieve. I don’t want to let myself down, so I am continuing to work hard to ensure that I achieve all of the goals I have for myself.
I hope that there are promises that you are able to keep to yourself and other people, too. It’s important to show that you take accountability for your actions. It shows that you are responsible and credible. It is an important skill to have as an employee, friend, and a family member.
Today, I will try my best to show that I am accountable by keeping my promises to everyone, and to myself. It is important that I don’t let anyone down by not staying true to my word.
Every week, I like to focus and write about simple ways that help lift us into better mood, that doesn’t require much energy or money. I call it Feel Good Fridays. I like to think that can help others.
This week I suggest that you purge a small area in your house, whether it is a drawer, a countertop, or a night table, or something that you have been wanting to go through for a little while now. It doesn’t have to be a big area in the house. This is just something to help you spark your motivation if you wish to continue going through more areas of your house.
Really ask yourself if you have used any of those objects in the last three months. And if the answer is no, then ask yourself if you plan on using it in the next three months. If the answer is still no, then those object(s) need to get donated, or thrown out/recycled if it is beyond repair. Then reorganize the area, if needed.
This mission will help you feel so much better. Living with less things has many benefits, such as less anxiety, less stress, and more money are just a few of the many benefits of living with less. You will be able to see more clearly of what makes you happy, and what doesn’t.
Of course, minimalism can done at your pace. You can spend a few days to purge through everything, or you can spend 15 minutes every day until you are satisfied with your work. So you can keep on going to clean the room, or take a break after your small area. Whatever you decide to do, be sure to take a rest after your hard work! You earned it.
I enjoy looking back throughout my day and realizing the lessons I have learned, or reflecting on what I have already learned throughout my life.
Something that I have learned is to never take anything for granted, instead you should be grateful for everything. Even when things aren’t working out for you the way you had hoped. You can take those hardships and you can learn a lot of things that you might have missed if you weren’t held a not so great hand of things. In some cases, failure and hardships can teach you more things than success ever will.
You should try your best to make every moment count for something. Never take things for granted, appreciate everything you have in life, even the bad. Go out there and make the most of everything your life has to offer. Keep on going strong, and don’t let any roadblocks stop you from reaching all of your goals.
Today, I will do my best to make every day, and every moment count. I will learn to take the good with the bad. I will try my best to not give up. I must keep on working towards my goals, and everything that life has offer.
Within the week of my Papa’s passing, we had a funeral for him. It was a lovely and beautiful service. I miss him and love him so much. I just wished we had more memories towards the end. Only because the final year of his life was spent in lockdown, so we couldn’t visit him. I feel like if I was able to see him during his final year, I wouldn’t feel so sad.
Something that my Papa always lived by, was to devote your time into your passions. Find what you are passionate about and spend your time working on them. It really encourage me to devote my time to spend time brainstorming and writing down some book ideas. My lifelong dream is to be a published author. I would love to be my own boss, and just write books. I have been planning on getting all caught up with the things I am behind in, like reading my library books, my blog, and just rearranging things in my room.
It is important to spend a bit of time every day to work on your goals and passions. Even if it’s just five minutes, it will be five minutes more than what you would have spent on your dreams if you didn’t.
Today, I will discover what my passions, and what I would like to accomplish in the upcoming weeks, months, or even years, depending on what your goal is. Once I have decided on what I want to achieve in my life, I would devote a little bit of time every day to achieve all that I would like to achieve.
For the sake of my Happiness Project, I ended up changing the date of my publication date on my previous blog posts. That way all of March Happiness Project’s resolutions and goals can be found in March, and not scattered through March, April and May. Thank you again for your patience and understanding.
I apologize for being so busy these past two months. I’m not sure if you have heard, but my Grandpa passed away two months ago. It has been the most challenging, and heartbreaking past few weeks. I feel like I’ve been going through a lot. He was the closest person I have ever lost. He was my best friend.
I have been trying to get all caught up with everything on here. But at the same time it feels like everyone wants my attention, and needs my help. I know I should put myself first, and my desires first. But at the same time, I always struggle to say no. But I do all of these things for my niece’s sake, and her benefit.
There are days where my sister and her boyfriend need me to watch my niece. And some days, I feel like drained by my other obligations, but I say yes, so I can see my niece, and spend time with her.
I am slowly starting to work towards things I want to do for myself, and things that would make me happy. I guess I just feel drained because there is so many things I want to do, and work towards, but I have falling a bit behind. I am now finding down time to get things done.
I made a list of some of the things that I need and want to get done. This has been so helpful, because I don’t have to get a mental note out of everything that I would like to get done. And now that I have a better visual of what needs to get done. I can see how to spend my time more wisely. This will help me stay motivated and on track of achieving everything I set out for myself.
I can’t wait to get all caught up again. I appreciate the love and support from everyone. Please continue to send me positive messages, and support. My goal is get caught up with things by June, if I can. I am determined to work through a lot on my To-Do List. I can’t wait to hear from all of you again. ❤
Every week, I like to write about a positive song to help us jump start the week. I like to call this segment Music Mondays. This song is from Monday March the 15th.
The song I selected is Touch the Sky, which is featured in the movie Brave. I really enjoy that movie a lot. My Great Grandparents are from Scotland, and the Disney Princess Merida is Scottish, too. I really like that.
To me, this song is about chasing your dreams and accomplishing them no matter what everyone else may say about your dreams. You are capable of achieving anything you set yourself out to accomplish.
“I will hear their every story Take hold of my own dream Be as strong as the seas are stormy And proud as an eagle’s scream”
I am so sorry for my absence on my blog. Last week, my Dad had sent me a message, telling me that my Grandpa (his Dad) has died. He has been in the hospital a few days before he had passed away. It was not Covid related.
He had a bad heart, but that never stopped him from loving everyone. Everyone was his best friend. He was my best friend my whole life. I feel really sad that he is no longer on earth with me. But I know that he will be looking down on me.
I have been trying to not let the sadness bring me down. But some days it is harder than others. My Papa has been having a hard year with his heart. And that he was sad that not too many people have been able to visit him. Where I live, in order to protect the elderly members a lot of the retirement homes can no longer have any visitors, and the residents that lived there, weren’t allowed to leave the retirement home. The Grandpa I knew was he was always moving and liked to keep myself busy. So for him not to be able to interact with everyone, was challenging on him.
My Dad had told me that it wasn’t looking too good for him. I was so sad, because I just kept on hoping that he would get better, so he could go back home. Because he was only allowed to be visited by his children, and grandchildren weren’t allowed to see him. We were still fortunate enough to have said our goodbyes via FaceTime with one of my uncles. I haven’t seen him in a year because of the Covid protocols. I was blessed to have visited my Grandparents the weekend before everything closed. During that visit I didn’t want to leave, because I had a feeling that it might have been the last time seeing him. I had a feeling because I knew it was only a matter of time before all of the retirement homes get placed under lockdown.
It’s been a difficult month, with trying to accept the loss of my Grandpa. It’s been challenging to accept that he is gone. The world feels so different without him here on Earth. He was a loving man. I just wished I got to make more memories with him. We missed out on a lot of memories during his final year, birthdays, BBQ’s, Christmas, and many visits. He lived a long, beautiful life. He got to be there for his family, and see his Grandchildren grow up. He even got to meet his Great Grandchildren. Not everyone gets that blessing. He was three months away for his 91st birthday.
Luckily we were able to have a funeral for him to honour the great man that he was. I feel so glad to have had you in my life for as long as I had. I’m almost 27, not too many of my friends have their Grandparents at that age, most of the people I knew from school had to deal with this during elementary days. I can’t even imagine to feel that burden.
Two weeks ago, my best friend, and one of my Gemini twins became my Guardian Angel.
“How lucky am I to have something that makes saying goodbye to so hard?”-A.A. Minnie, Winnie the Pooh
I feel so fortunate that we were able to have so many years together, filled with so many wonderful memories. You were the best Grandpa anyone could have asked for.
I always get told that I look so much like you, and I love that I can see a resemblance of you in myself.
I thought that sitting on your lap was always the best seat in the house. It made me feel happy and safe being wrapped around your arms. We would tell each other stories, and we would make each other laugh all the time.
I remember that time you bought all of my back to school supplies, as well as my sister’s supplies, too. I was going to start grade one, and my sister was going to start the fourth grade. I wanted to have all of the fancy supplies that my sister was getting, like all of those cool binders, rulers, calculators, highlighters, pencil crayons, and so many other supplies that I did not need for the first grade. But I wanted to be just like my sister! But having all of these supplies made me want to do well in school. You inspired me to reach my goals. And I am still making sure that I reach my goals now.
I remember whenever I got sick, you would babysit me while my parents were at work. And other times, you would drive yourself and Grandma to our place, to drop off homemade soup. Grandma would make the best chicken noodle soup, and turkey soup. She would make us whatever she had on hand at the time. I always felt so blessed.
I remember the one time I was at your cottage, and I had lost my first tooth, since you told me that eating some celery would help it come out. Your idea totally worked! Although after I lost my tooth, I got all worried, because I didn’t think that the Tooth Fairy would be able to find me so far away from home. You had helped me calm down, when you explained that the Tooth Fairy will still be able to find me. She did indeed.
I remember when we were about to head out for the cottage, but Great Auntie (his sister-in-law) had called Grandma. Those two loved to talked to each other. While we waited for their conversation to end, you taught me how to tie my shoes. It made me so happy! I remember getting to tell Grandma all about it once she got off of the phone.
I always remember going to your house a lot of the time, because you and Grandma would have invited us over for roast beef, mashed potatoes (which are my favourite) carrots, and corn. And we would always end the night with us dancing together. You would place my feet on top of yours, and we would hold hands while we swayed across the floor in the foyer. We would always Dance it Out!
I was always at your house so much, it was basically a second home away from home. From the countless sleepovers, to our weekly dinners, I was always visiting you! We also watched Wheel of Fortune, Jeopardy! and whatever sport game was on afterwards, whether it was football, or your favourite the New York Rangers, we always had a fun time.
I remember that one sleepover at your house, during the Easter long weekend. We had our family dinner on the Saturday night, and then I spent the night with my auntie, my uncle, and my two cousins after everyone else had left. The three of us woke up to an Easter Scavenger Hunt for chocolate eggs the next morning. You were helping me the most try to find the eggs! And all of those other weekend sleepovers at my auntie and uncle’s house. Especially since they lived so far away from us, so the road trips were also fun, too! Those were the best.
We also had so many sleepovers with my sister, which were always so much fun. Especially when it was during the winter time, you would drive us around the neighbourhood and look at all of the Christmas lights.
I loved how I was fortunate enough to celebrate our birthdays together since our birthdays were ten days apart. It was always a wonderful celebration. Our names were both written on the cake for a lot of our birthdays. That always made me smile.
Another dear memory of mine that I have of you, is that when I was in the hospital in the fifth grade, you and Grandma came to the hospital and visited me every day! I am always thankful for your company. And most days you came over with presents, to help me feel more comfortable.
Because of all of the cups of tea we have shared together, I have become obsessed with tea. And now I will always think of you whenever I have a cup of tea. You always made the best cup of tea ever! You showed me a love for puzzles like Sudoku, and word searches, bowling, and dressing up.
I will always remember you by looking so dapper. You always had your hair combed really nicely. You even kept a comb in your back pocket. You would even wear a suit and a jacket, despite us just having brunch together at a restaurant. I remember all of my uncles telling you that you didn’t have to wear a suit for a brunch. You would reply with that you wanted to. The only time I really saw you dress casually was when I saw you on Fridays for our weekly dinners, and whenever we went to the beach
Of course, I can go on and on with even more of the memories we have shared together, because you truly have given me a lifetime of memories, that I will cherish forever.
You passed down so much of your wisdom, and compassion onto me. You have taught me valuable lessons throughout my life. You showed me the importance of helping out others, and being kind to others. You taught me what it means to truly love someone, and how to be family-oriented.
Thank you for telling me all of these stories about my great aunties, and uncles, and great grandparents, and the stories about you and Grandma, and how you two met. I have always admired your love story with Grandma, it’s like a fairy tale. They were married for 68 years, and have been together for almost 71 years. Growing up I had wished that I would have an amazing love story like you two. And lucky for me, I met my Prince Charming on the day of your wedding anniversary. I took that as a sign from the universe!
Growing up you were always the first person I told good news to. You always believed in me. You have helped shape me into who I am as a person. You have inspired me, and strengthened me over the years.
Thank you for all that you have done for me, and for our family. You taught me that it is important to make compromises for our family. I am grateful that you took us to see my Great Auntie. We always played cards, and other games with my Great Auntie. She always would make us her delicious fudge. We visited her a lot with my Grandparents because she was lonely since her husband passed away not too long ago. She was always such a nice lady. She’s another Gemini that I hold dear to my heart!
I am going to miss you so much. But I know that as long as I keep you in my heart, you are never really gone. You will forever be a part of us. I know that I can be sad all I want to be, but I can also be happy for you that you can see all of your siblings, and all of the other amazing people that have passed on before you. Please tell Great Auntie, that I say hello, and that I miss her, too. I hope you are enjoying her homemade fudge and Shortbread cookies. I also hope that you are playing Jeopardy! with Alex Trebek.
I had a 30 second dance party on the night you had passed because that is how we finish! I love you more than words would be able to explain my love for you. Please continue to send me your support, and your love for me. And be sure to send me any pieces of advice and guidance whenever you may think I need any. You will be missed dearly. I love you with all of my heart. Until we meet again… xoxo
Since you always inspired me to chase after my dreams, and I will be honouring you by writing a book about you, and all of the memories we have shared. I will keep everyone posted with the writing. I will love to start getting back into writing again. Writing has always made me so happy.
I feel like this is what you have been sending me, that you would want me to continue to live my life, and to reach my goals. You would want me to be happy, and to remember all of the times we have shared.
Thank you for everything that you have ever done for me. It means so much!
For my followers, thank you so much for your love and patience during this time. I appreciate all of the likes and support that you have been giving me. It truly means the world to me.
I finally got all caught up with my blog posts! I couldn’t be more happy about that!
I started this week on a grind. I was determined to finish everything (my blog posts, put away the laundry, and my other to-do items). I feel so proud of myself. I feel so proud of all the women in my life, and around the world, too. I was able to do my yoga practices, and my meditation. I did some light cleaning around the house, as well.
Be sure to start your week off on a grind. Remember to work hard. Your goals are on the horizon, and you are so close to achieving them. Keep on going!
Today, I will begin my week with stamina. I will recognize that my goals are on the horizon, and that I am so close to achieve them. I just need to keep on pushing myself forward. I will remind myself of how proud I become when I accomplish anything that I wish to achieve.Learn to leave no stone unturned.
Even when the weekend comes around, you should try you’re best to stick to your routine. I know it’s tempting not to stick to a routine. But it is necessary to help you stick to your routine, that you have for yourself. Mind you, it’s okay if there’s something that pops up, and prevents you from sticking to your routine. Take one day to rest. What I find challenging, is when you skip two days in a row. That’s where I feel like you lose your motivation. It’s harder to regain back, when you skip so many days.
Today, I will try my best to maintain a routine, and keep working towards my goals. Although I know it is challenging to work towards on the weekend. But I know if I start skipping out on too many days, I might not be able to regain my motivation back.