What is New With Me?

Firstly, hey everyone! I hate that it has been so long since my last post! But I hope that everyone is well. This year has been difficult. I’ve been feeling down most days. I’ve been feeling sad because of the losses I have encountered this year, so that’s been a bit challenging trying to find the positives in things as of now.

I’ve been working two jobs, which can be tiring, but it has also been rewarding, too. Since I am always working a lot, I end up not having as much time to myself as I would like to have. I do miss having more time to cook some of my delicious meals. So I try to make sure that I budget my time wisely to ensure I get things done and that I can make time for fun. I’ve also been able to try out new restaurants, and making time for people. I’ve also been getting my nails done, which has been a lot of fun! I do enjoy having an active social life.

And during the transition of starting my two jobs, my Grandma passed away. I was really upset about it, because my Grandma helped shaped me into the person that I am today. She has taught me so much, like how to be polite and the importance about using my manners. She passed down her love for cooking and baking to me. Although I feel like I have lost her even before she passed away, because she was sick for throughout a good portion of my life. So I was slowly watching her lose who she was piece by piece. But I am able to find comfort in the fact that she is now reunited with my Grandpa in Heaven.

I have recently reconnected with a friend last year, but it just been feeling like there has been a lot of space between us as of lately. So that can be lonely somedays, and can make me feel a bit sad. I think about my friend from time to time, always sending them good vibes. But this friend does bring me a lot of happiness, so I am glad that we got to reconnect. I think the last time I saw was about eight years ago, or so. We still talked during those times. I’m glad that we are apart of each other’s lives again!

Throughout the year I have been blessed to reconnect and talk to people I haven’t spoken to for a little while, which has been so much fun catching up with everyone. I am thankful for the people who have been by my side no matter what has happened between us.

I am hoping that this year can end on a positive note. This year and the year prior has been difficult for me. I still plan on achieving my goals that I have put in place for myself. I want to go back to school, but I am still figuring what I want to pursue, which for some reason has been challenging, because I can envision myself doing many different jobs.

But I also have some other goals that aren’t job focused per se, such as making more time for reading, and blogging, saving up money, and going through my belongings and the things I own. In hope that I can remove some of the excess stuff that I no longer need. I also want to work on saving up so I can travel! I miss being able to write my own stories. I have written some short stories on here before. I will probably edit them and make them better. But if you are interested in reading these stories. https://yellowdaisies3.wordpress.com/category/writing-wednesdays/

I actually want to start a book club, where hopefully a few people on here will be interested in joining me talk about the book of the month. I have never really been a part of a book club, but I have always wanted to partake in them. I have read a few books from the Oprah Winfrey’s Book Club, and Reese’s Book Club. But I unfortunately haven’t been able to interact with everyone else who has read the books.

I cannot wait to be able to make these goals and dreams happen for me! I hope that the end of this year can lead into a happy and adventurous 2023! I am so beyond happy for myself!

I will be talking more about my Book Club which I have worked out the details of the book I have selected and think of some discussion questions. I am so excited! This is my first time hosting a Book Club, so I do need a bit of research first. Stay tuned!

I would love to know how everyone has been over this year! I would love to catch up with all of you! Please comment and I’ll reach out to everyone. It can be anything from your biggest struggle, a triumph, something that you accomplished, or something you wish to accomplish, or anything you wish to talk about. I would love to reconnect with my followers!

With Love,
Three Yellow Daisies xo

Let Go With Grace

I attended a meditative writing workshop a few years ago, and this is what I wrote. It was a small gathering of people where we began to listen to a guided meditation and we would have ten minutes to transfer our thoughts onto our journals. This was actually from five years ago, but I just came across this piece paper the other day. Our starting line for that night was “As I stepped onto the path…” Although I have slightly revised it a bit.

As I stepped onto the path I take a look back and see how far I’ve come and everything that has happened to me, the good, the bad, and the “not so pretty” times, I realized that everything happened for a reason. I learn just how grateful I am for everything. I remember my challenges that gave me the strength to conquer all that I need to in my journey. I trust the universe.

As I stepped onto the path, I I let go of fear of would, or will happen to me. Overthinking at its finest. I let go of the past for it has shaped me into who I am and who I am meant to be. I let go of all that no longer serves me or sparks joy. I let it all go. I let go with grace.

As I stepped onto the path I am lighter. I am free. I release all judgement from others, but more importantly from myself. I welcome joy and allow myself to do things that adds happiness. I become mindful and don’t fret about the past or the future. I stay present.

I keep on moving and welcome great things. As I step onto the path, I can invite new opportunities to better myself.

I no longer let other people judge me or belittle me. I am only trying my best. As I step on the path I know I can do anything I set my mind to. If something goes wrong, or if I stumble, I make it part of my dance and keep on travelling. I let go of what no longer serves me. I listen to the music in my heart, and keep on striving for many adventures on the horizon. As I step on the path, I let go with grace.

Day 77

This is from Thursday March 18th.

Within the week of my Papa’s passing, we had a funeral for him. It was a lovely and beautiful service. I miss him and love him so much. I just wished we had more memories towards the end. Only because the final year of his life was spent in lockdown, so we couldn’t visit him. I feel like if I was able to see him during his final year, I wouldn’t feel so sad.

Something that my Papa always lived by, was to devote your time into your passions. Find what you are passionate about and spend your time working on them. It really encourage me to devote my time to spend time brainstorming and writing down some book ideas. My lifelong dream is to be a published author. I would love to be my own boss, and just write books. I have been planning on getting all caught up with the things I am behind in, like reading my library books, my blog, and just rearranging things in my room.

It is important to spend a bit of time every day to work on your goals and passions. Even if it’s just five minutes, it will be five minutes more than what you would have spent on your dreams if you didn’t.

Today, I will discover what my passions, and what I would like to accomplish in the upcoming weeks, months, or even years, depending on what your goal is. Once I have decided on what I want to achieve in my life, I would devote a little bit of time every day to achieve all that I would like to achieve.

Day 73

This lesson is from Sunday March 14th.

I became inspired from Melody Beattie about her meditation book called The Language of Letting Go. She writes a piece of advice, and affirmation every day of the year. I wanted to make my own, as well. I write about life lessons I have learned throughout the day, or throughout my life. I feel like I have a lot of wisdom to pass on to others. Mind you everyone has different opinions about everything else, so take what you like, and leave the rest. Mind you, you don’t have to do anything you don’t want during this journey. I am trying to work towards being more mindful, and present this year.

One of my favourite hobbies is writing, whether it’s writing my blogs, or writing short stories. It is something that I have always spent time doing. I also like to journal my feelings, and my goals, too. But something that I haven’t done in awhile is write someone a letter. I used to write my boyfriend a letter every so often, even though we live together, but it is nice to write someone a letter. I also liked writing to my cousin as well. But that was something we stopped not too long ago. That is something I hope her and I can continue.

Writing someone a letter, and let them that you miss them, or why you love them will instantly brighten their day. And knowing that you helped someone feel good about themselves, will make you feel happier, too. Writing also helps you clear your head, and help you pause and reflect on what truly matters. If you like to, you can save your letters for a scrap book, or to keep and treasure for later. And there are many other benefits to writing a letter to someone.

You can even write someone an email, too. Although you might not experience the same benefits by actually writing a letter by hand. Only because when you write a letter by hand, you have to put more thought into your writing, whereas with email, it is a bit easier since you can backspace, and rearrange certain sentences.

Today, I will try my best to write someone a letter to someone who is dear to me. I will express my appreciation and love that I have towards them. It is important that I remind my loved ones how much they mean to me.

Day 37

So, today brought me some challenges. My boyfriend and I have been facing disagreements, as of lately. Which has been allowing me to focus on how to fight right with someone, which is one of my resolutions for February. There are several ways where arguments can cause even more trouble than what you two, or however many people are involved in the situation, worse than what the disagreement was.

For one, heated arguments make people say things they don’t mean. Although they shouldn’t use the argument as an excuse. But it does happen from time to time. When this happens, the person who was just called a bad name, may excuse themselves from the argument, and may take longer to heal from this argument.

One way to solve this situation, is to calmly let the person you are mad or in a disagreement know how you feel. Use “I feel” statements. Give them to time to process what you are feeling. You can bring to talk about the situation, or you can ever write a letter about what you are feeling. That way you will refrain yourself from saying something hurtful. The extra time it takes you to write a letter, the more time it will give you reflect on what you are currently fighting about.

When you have explained what and why you are feeling a certain, give the letter to the person you are having a disagreement with. Let them read and write up an apology and next steps to ensure the same thing doesn’t happen again.

Today, I will realize that there are several ways to end a conflict, while trying not to be rude to the person I am fighting with. May this disagreement bring us closer together by letting us see where things went wrong, so we can work together to repair it.

Thankful Thursdays #32 – February 4th, 2021

Each week, I like to think and appreciate what I am thankful for throughout the week. I encourage everyone to do the same. You don’t have to write it, or type it out, but it does help, but stop stopping whatever you are focusing on, you can take a pause to think about what you are thankful for during the week.

Here is my list.

  1. I am happy that my mom’s move went well. She is slowly starting to settle in her new place. I am happy for her.
  2. I am grateful that my mom bought me some lunch the other day, that was really nice of her.
  3. I have been slowly making time to jot some ideas down for my stories. I am really excited to start writing again. I have been brainstorming some cool ideas, so I am going to bring back Writing Wednesdays again! I normally write a short story, or a chapter of something I am working on.
  4. I am thankful for the continued love and support I am receiving from my all of my followers. Keep up with the amazing support. It makes me so happy that I can inspire so many people.
  5. I am glad that there were a few days where the weather was nice, which made it really enjoyable to go for a walk. I try to go out as often as I can.

Let me know what you are grateful for in the comments. 🙂

Day 25

I realized that I made a mistake when I was trying to discuss something with my boyfriend. I was upset and needed someone to talk about things. I became aware that I should have discussed it with him during dinner. I say that we should have talked about this earlier, since it isn’t a good idea to talk about stressful things in an hour before bed.

Discussing these things with my boyfriend before bed, didn’t really help me, because he became upset and stressed out, too. We didn’t really come up with any ideas to resolve this situation. So it had to wait until later to figure out a solution.

Today, if I can, I will not talk about stressful situations before going to bed, as it might interfere with actually falling asleep. Instead, I will try to write about my feelings in a journal, and I will discuss with someone who is involved in the situation, or someone who might be able to solve the situation until it is an appropriate time to discuss something stressful.

Thankful Thursday #30 – January 21st, 2021

I feel so honoured to be apart of the blog community. I love reading about people’s lives, success, and what they have learnt from their missteps. Even though we might hate to admit when things went wrong, but that’s where we learn the most things about ourselves.

I would love to read all of the things you are thankful for throughout the week. Here is my list.

  1. The motivation of wanting to write a story. Although finding the time, is another issue. I am thankful that I have the desire to write a story. I have been really wanting to get back into writing. Hopefully when my schedule becomes less busy, I can get back into writing again.
  2. I am thankful for the time I spent cleaning and tidying my room, so I am able to enjoy spending it in a clean environment.
  3. I am glad that I got to spend an extra day with my boyfriend, he took a day off throughout the week. We got to spend more time than we would have.
  4. I am grateful for being able to talk to my friends and family members via text messages since we live far away, and can’t travel to see each other.
  5. I am grateful that I am able to stay true to reading 30 minutes a day despite how busy some of my days have been.

Day 19

I couldn’t really sleep the night before, so I decided it’s best to do something productive with my time. At the same I was always doing something to fall asleep, as well. I began reading some of my book, that helped a bit, but it still wasn’t enough. I began writing in my journal, because I thought maybe I was feeling a bit too stressed out about things. I started thinking about some writing ideas. After I released my thoughts, I just laid there, trying not to think about anything for a couple of minutes.

That didn’t work, so I put on my favourite show, Grey’s Anatomy. That is my comfort show, I must have watched it a million times already. And that seemed to do the trick.

Whenever I can’t fall asleep, I will try to do something productive with my time, instead of just laying there, tossing and turning in my bed. If that doesn’t work, I will try to resort into watching a show, or a movie to help me fall asleep. Or vow to myself to make an evening routine.

Day Three

Every day I will be posting and talking about life lessons and daily affirmations. I cannot wait to share my wisdom with others. Even though I am still in 20’s, I still feel like I can provide people with some of the life lessons I have learned. I hope this blog universe becomes even more of a safe place to talk about our feelings, and experiences. Although I would never force anyone to share something that they aren’t comfortable with.

Because life is extremely short and unpredictable, we should learn to fill every day with something that we love doing. Bonus points if you do this activities with someone you love. Perhaps you enjoy drawing, or singing, or reading, or something totally different. By ensuring you spend time doing you love every day, even if it is just 15 minutes, you increase your chances of improving yourself from that goal. And I believe in that saying that it takes 10,000 hours to master something. Not only does spending your day doing something you love, add happiness in your life, you can also improve your skills.

And who knows, maybe partaking in this habit, you may realize that maybe this is something you would want to do as a full time job, or for a charitable cause. Sometimes our hobbies can become just more than hobbies.

We never know what type of obstacles life is going to throw our way, tomorrow or next week, so it becomes even more relevant to do the things that makes us happy. Which is always important to start your day or end your day with something you love doing.

Today, I will find the time to do something that I will add happiness throughout my day. No matter how busy or tiring my day may be, I will do something every day that excites me, and adds joy.